[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	"us against the world" by play	]

i havent been on for a long ass time now.... 
but since the break up with randy ..
me and him have become at least freinds..

i also started dating this guy back in feb., his name was sam. 
he went to prom with me and even to mexico!
but that has just recently ended after 8 months.

but now i have moved on rather quickly cause i wasnt really attached at all

i am now dating a guy from praire ridge/NIU.... his name is max.
he's really sweet and all...
he even already says he loves me!
i've been thinking a lot and am still a little confused if my feelings for him are that strong yet.
but i can see a long future.... which i havent thought of since i was with randy
but i dont want to jinx anything or ruin the relatioship

oh and college is a pain!
there are soo many damn papers....i'm actually suppose to be typing one rite now
but i'm off to do taht... 
i hope everyone else is doing good
~~betsy

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mood

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hopeful

]

so... i really like this kid that i've been dating for a couple of months now....
but i think the gods are against us sometimes...urgggg
life just stresses great things.... 
but i'm going to try to be optimisic and see all the great in the relationships
 instead of the defaults that life is throwing at us....

and i finally graduated .... i ALMOST cried... but i didnt!
so i can pretty much finally call myself a freshmen again...urgh


oh and i go to mexico in a week.... 
i was excited but like i said life likes to fuck things up in my life....
especially when everthings going pretty much PERFECT

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mood

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calm

]

well its been a long time since i've updated this.....
prom was amazing.... and GRADUATION is coming up soon... 
i cant wait.. but i'm sitll mostlikely going to cry....

and i hope to go to a place called Savanna,IL

hope everyone has a great memorial day weekend!!!!

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mood

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content

]

I HATE THE DARK!!!

the lights went out earlier.... urggg.... it sucked...

but lights are on again!!! yay!!!

[	mood	|	nervous	]
[	music	|	"my wish" rascal flatts	]

Its amazing how messed up life can be...
One minuate everything can be just great and then one song one silly song comes on and all you think about is everything that happened. how greater things were, how happy everything was, and how siple and noncomplicated things were just a few months ago. i had everything planned out...but i'm learning that i shouldnt plan everything cause life, they butthead it is, likes to throw its stupid little suprises at you! its not fair but thats what it is all about. i guess it is good cause who would really want to know everything that was to happen. seriously that would be soooooo damn boring. but then again i hate feeling pain. but i guess you have to feel pain in order to feel true happiness.
wow, is thinking bad for me.
all i want to do is tell him how i feel. and i cant cause i feel he hates me for the stupidest reason ever.
i just want him to be my friend again. 

[	mood	|	cheerful	]
[	music	|	"all i think about is you"	]

i love him...

i love him ....

and i love him.....

its that simple~!

[	mood	|	curious	]
[	music	|	"get a little bit closer"	]

all there is to say is ......

that everything is going .....

GREAT again!

hope you all have a good new years

[	mood	|	blah	]
[	music	|	"mr.lonely"	]

EMPTY....

yes empty....thats the best way to describe how i feel...

i feel like theres nothing in me...

like you could drop a huge bomb in me and it could explode in my tummy ....

and nothing would be gone.... cause it was empty...

yes empty best way to say it.

[	mood	|	loved	]
[	music	|	"best i ever had"	]

"You don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without."

"Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all."
"True love never dies for it is lust that fades away. Love bonds for a lifetime but lust just pushes away."
"Some love lasts a lifetime. True love lasts forever."

"Within you I lose myself
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again."
"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand."
"Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop."

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

"To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage."

"We cannot really love anybody with whom we never laugh."

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. 

"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved."

"Love is like Pi: natural, irrational, and very important."

"The best proof of love is trust."

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart." 

"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world."
some quotes i like..... felt like sharing how i feel/how i've been feeling for the past few months... in love!

[	mood	|	bouncy	]
[	music	|	"desperato"	]

today was a good day.....

hung with my love... went to my daddys ..... and went to baby-G's party.

everything is goin okay i guess.... i'm happy but i'm still sick sadly.

well g2g

~betsy

ps

love you darling

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mood

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confused

]

"Last night we went to bed not talkin',
'Cause we'd already said too muh.
I faced the wall, you faced the window.
Bound and determined not to touch.

We've been married seven years now.
Sometimes it feels like 21.
I'm still mad at you this mornin'.
Coffee's ready if you want some.
I've been up since five, thinkin' bout me and you.
And I've got to tell you the conclusion I've come to.

I'll never leave, I'll never stray.
My love for you will never change.
But I ain't ready to make up.
We'll get around to that.
I think I'm right, I think you're wrong.
I'll prob'ly give in before long.
Please don't make me smile.
I just wanna be mad for a while.

Well, now you might as well forget it.
Don't run your fingers through my hair.
Yeah, that's right, I'm bein' stubborn.
No, I don't wanna go back upstairs.
I'm gonna leave for work without a goodbye kiss.
But as I'm drivin' off, just remember this.

I'll never leave, I'll never stray.
My love for you will never change.
But I ain't ready to make up.
We'll get around to that.
I think I'm right, I think you're wrong.
I'll prob'ly give in before long.
Please don't make me smile.
I just wanna be mad for a while. " T. Clark

its just a lil way to describe how i'm feeling..... i'm upset.... but i'll never leave ...

i just need to be mad for a while...

~laterz~

[	mood	|	"in love"	]
[	music	|	"big blue note"	]

"If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time"
From my randy~~~

i love that boy soo much~~~

theses are for you darling:

Last night I had a crazy dream.
A wish was granted just for me, it could be for anything.
I didn't ask for money, or a mansion in Malibu.
I simply wished, for one more day with you.

One more day, one more time.
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied.
But then again, I know what it would do.
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you.
One more day.

First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl.
I'd unplug the telephone, keep the TV off.
I'd hold you every second, say a million I love you's;
That's what I'd do, with one more day with you.

One more day, one more time.
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied.
But then again, I know what it would do.
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you.

~D.Rio "one more day"Well, you take my hand,
Yeah, you pull me close and I understand:

It's the sweet love that you give to me,
It makes me believe that we can make it through anything.

Baby, it's the sweet love that you give to me,
That makes me believe we can make it through anything.
'Cause when it all comes down,
An' I'm feeling like I'll never last,
I just lean on you 'cause, baby:
You're my better half.

Oh, oh baby, you're my better half.
Ooh, hey baby, you're my better half.

K. Urban "my better half"

I'm gonna be here for you, baby:
I'll be a man of my word.
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard.
I wanna sleep with you forever,
An' I wanna die in your arms,
In a cabin by a meadow where the wild bees swarm.

And I'm gonna love you,
Like nobody loves you.
An' I'll earn your trust making mem'ries of us.

I wanna honor your mother,
I wanna learn from your Pa.
I wanna steal your attention like a bad outlaw.
An' I wanna stand out in a crowd for you:
A man among men.
I wanna make your world better than it's ever been.

And I'm gonna love you,
Like nobody loves you.
An' I'll earn your trust making mem'ries of us.

~K. Urban "makeing memories of us"

Sometimes I close my eyes,
And imagine you're with me.
Chasing passion into the night,
All tangled in a dream.
Oh if you could see my heart,
The way I feel inside.
You would know just how far,
I'm willing to go to get to you.
There is nothing I won't do.

Show me what its like to lose control
Free the desire in your soul
Oh, oh, let me love you.
Let me take you to a place like no where else,
Show you the things you never felt
Oh, oh, let me love you.

Oh, I want to taste your kiss,
Be the reason for your smile.
Touch the magic on your skin,
Be the one that drives you wild.
Oh, if you could read my mind,
You'd know you're everything I need.
You'd see yourself through my eyes.
You may understand what I'm going through,
Just how much I want you.

Let me love you.
Let me love you!


Show me what its like to lose control
Free the desire in your soul
Oh, oh, let me love you.
Let me take you to a place like no where else,
Show you the things you never felt
Oh, oh, let me love you.

Oh I love you.

~T. McGraw "let me love you"

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin' is)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

~PCD "stickwitu"

love ya

~me~

[	mood	|	lazy	]
[	music	|	"jesus take the wheel"	]

ok so i'm updating this again cause i have not life... and i really dont want to do my homework.

so i really dont recall what i have dont in the past few weeks... so nothing much exciting i guess.

but i cant wait until christmas break!!!! yay!!! and especially NEW YEARS!!!!! :-)

OH i'm soo happy, and i'm soo sick.... i feel better though... and what is up with everyone going to join the myspace thing!?!??! personally i dont want to hook up with people online... its kind of sad to hook up with people online... your gay to hook up with people like this! and dont take it soo personal ... but its just my opinion. :-)

anyways, no one reads this probably... so i'll just babble on ........so this weekend i hung out with my darling and we moved my room around.... it looks purrrttty roomy now... i like it!!

oh and i might get to see my old friend in the middle of this week sometime... he's suppose to call me... so we can make the date. i cant wait! and i got Baby-Gs party to go to this weekend and then i get to cook next weekend and then another christmas party. yay!!!

oh i really should go do my homework... laterz

~bets~

ps....

happy holidays